Tuesday, October 02, 2007

Well here is the news from the sunny, but colder than normal bamboo forest in CA. Oct. has started out with a bang. In just the first week we will celebrate Larry's bday...and I will post more on that later.
I had another cancer dr. appointment. 5 short weeks ago I saw him and he thought that I might be close to remission so we sent blood work to Stanford and waited for the results. I was suppose to be going in to see what the next steps would be. Surprise, when I arrived the finger stick showed an elevated WBC...out of limits that are allowed. Let's not worry about it yet till I get the results from Stanford....so the results came in while I was on my way home. The counts have all increased and we are not increasing my meds... that's right. The really nasty one that swells my face and makes me feel all warm and queasy inside... So other than having a big emotional upset...when you think your winning and then the score board doesn't say you are....you just go to your knees and tell the coach that you will keep on trying and to let you stay in the game. And of course, he will keep you playing as long as he can and he has a great game plan...I just don't know it yet. I think the hardest part was telling all the team players...not being able to hug the girls and tell them it will be alright...looking at the boys faces and seeing that they don't know how to react...and praising God for the grace that the little ones truly don't understand or comprehend what lies ahead.
So after a day of increased meds...my stomach stopped hurting right before dinner....I take the meds after dinner and it starts again. But at least I had a great hamburger (homemade) and beans with home grown tomatoes... I just hope I don't loose more of my taste buds like I did when I started the meds....I LIKE FOOD!
Well another road to travel down, another day to trust God for the little things since I already trust him with the big stuff (I learned that I can't do anything about the big stuff). And now another night to rest the old bag of bones and see if I can keep Larry awake with my snoring.....Life is Good...the other option is not so good.